A RUSH OF BLOOD TO THE HEAD

Someone call the ambulance, it’s going to be an accident, there’s no running and hide, cos I can see in the dark, I’ll find you, cos I can see in the dark.

I didn’t want to do things this way, I thought we were going to get married and have a beautiful family together, that’s what he promised, until one day, he says, I’m moving to Japan, good luck with your life! He didn’t even give me the option to go with him, not that I’m into Japan or so, but at least he could have asked me, Hey Jude! Do you want to come? Ian… you selfish coward… then I couldn’t see, you know when you are so angry that you can’t see and is like if you have a rush of blood to your head and the next thing you know is that you’ve just done something which you didn’t think you were capable of and the next thing you know is that you’re in your apartment and Ian is tied up to a chair, stripped to his underwear and with his body covered by stitches.

Then, you go and check the house and you discover that you also have Johny and Mark locked in a room, under drugs and sleeping on the floor like animals, and you can’t remember what happened, you can’t remember how you did it, why you did it, and you feel sort of guilty and you asked yourself whether there’s something wrong with you, because you couldn’t hurt a fly and you are perfectly normal, you work as a doctor, you pay your taxes, you go for drinks with your friends, you travel, do yoga, there’s nothing wrong about you, but there’s something wrong inside you, is that rush of blood straight to your head, once that happens you’re just not yourself any more, you don’t know who you are, but it’s someone dangerous and capable of anything in order to get what she wants, and that person, that alter ego likes hurting others and feels pleasure at doing it.

Poor Ian! Things could have been so much easier for him but he chose Japan over me, and now he is going to suffer the pain and all the physical symptoms of being truly madly deeply in love, the chemistry that changes inside and creates a revolution of hormones, the feeling of losing your limbs every time you’re far from that person, the little scars of every time that person is away or hurts, he is going to learn about pain and love, I’ll be the best teacher he could have. Although, there was an open question, what were Johny and Mark doing in the house?…

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